I think i am new to the group badly affected by this “aur batao” syndrome.Also, it is obviously not that i always share my feeling with every one .First of all, i think they are too useless to share neways and secondly, may be it is this scorpion nature of mine to be
mysterious. So why i am even thinking to write this blog at all? ..very frankly i have nothing better to do in office and it is still 4:30 ..a whole 1 1/2 hr more to go before i can rush back to the nukkad shop for garam chai and secondly, things have become so
confusing in my life that it feels gud to pen down your feeling sometimes.
Well those who don’t know me..it is important to tell right now that last Wednesday was my b’day. Had awesome time with my close friends and lot of phone calls from lot of friends. May be that was when this “aur batao” syndrome caught me too badly. So basically more or less this is how a normal phone call goes these days.
caller: hey lota, kaisa hai
lota: hey , bas yaar ek dum mast..tu bata..
caller: bas yaar chal rahi hai life , Happy b’day..
lota: thnks..
caller: aur batao?
now it is too difficult to think where did we leave our last conversation and from where should i start telling him. So basically i tend to answer..”aur to bas ,chal rahi hai life”..and then since i got the opportunity to speak and i seriously don’t remember what we
talked last time..i also ask the person same question..”aur tum batao..”
I seriously don’t find any thing happening in my life so exciting that i tell every thing to a distant friend. Neither do i think i have energy\want to explain my friend why i did if at all i did something interesting. Even though it feel really good when some one calls you
and remembers you on a special day but why are we falling short of event happening in our lives. Is it because of this corporate life which is generating robots who work daily in a highly uninteresting world for 9-10 hrs of their life and come back home and want to forget every damn thing they did in those hours and fail to do so , coz few deadlines are still waiting to be completed the next day or may be it is the sms generation we are in, where things are moving really fast and ppl try to be so much busy in their lives to make the best of it and they dont have time to remember what’s going on in other’s life.
This was not the case during my college days, even when i was sitting outside main gate for a “cutting chai” or eating out at “gupta ji kipanipuri” and “masala dosa” at nearby stall i had things to share with friends. Things have so much changed since those days and i am getting more and more engrossed in this “busy” life, that i am completely loosing importance of those “small” things. Is it because we are always running towards the bigger picture of life.
Or may be is it also because of this continuous fight to answer the question of what is exactly i am looking forward to in my life? May be there is no real aim in my life and i am just running after a void in search of this reason. Sometimes i also think why is it important to have an aim at all in life. May be where life takes you is not at all important, it is your daily activities and new experience you get daily which will finally shape up your life.
Whatever it is,It is always nice to hear voice of a distant friend, i really appreciate when they call and we share a nice smile on some old joke but whenever he/she asks me “aur batao, kya chal raha hai life main.” ..it is a flashback that goes in my mind thinking what i must tell him/her that might interest him/her. Should i tell that i sat for 9 hrs on my office desk without a clue what am i supposed to do or should i tell i have no clue myself “kya chal raha hai life main ” . Please if u can tell me “kya chal raha hai meri life main” let me know but there is always that guilt feeling that comes into my mind when am unable to answer this question.
So dear friends, next time when u call me and ask me “Aur batao…” , i will always reply with a cheerful smile , “bas zindagi chal rahi hai yaar..”coz right now this is what i know abt my life and nothing else until i have figured out seriously “kya chal raha hai meri life main” . Please dont mind and keep calling.
So now i am logging off. Firstly coz i am short of words now and secondly, its already 6 and i must push my ass to company’s gym which i can boldly say, “ek hafte se daily chal rahi hai meri life main” but first to the nukkad’s chai and lakeside sunset. 
